Retreat, Evaluate

For the next few days, this blog will not be updated. I need to retreat, evaluate and determine what God has in mind, if anything, for this blog.

As long as I’m updating everyday, it’s difficult for me to be objective about what I’m doing. Maybe the blog will remain the same. Maybe I’ll make a few cosmetic and/or thematic adjustments. I don’t know, and that’s good. I’ll listen to God, who tells me to:

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6-7)

I want that peace, but right now I don’t have it as far as the blog is concerned. I’m not tired of it. I’ve just had doubts lately about why I’m doing this. Am I glorifying God or myself?

I don’t like to admit weakness, but the untrue and inaccurate things I read about myself are starting to bother me. Who, what, where, when and how isn’t important, but the anger I feel toward people who misrepresent my statements must be dealt with. I can’t blog my way through it; I need to pray my way through it.

I often wonder how well-known people deal with it. Lies are written and uttered about them everyday, and they can’t respond and react to every one. It doesn’t matter, ultimately. This is between me and God. I’ve let the blog and other things interfere with my time with him. Despite that, he still loves me. The Bible says:

[W]e are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8: 37-39)

For that, I love him.

I’ll still be lurking, approving comments caught in the spam filter and banishing misbehaving commenters to the outer edge of the blogosphere. I’m still reading and answering e-mail, so drop me a line anytime. I ask for your prayers as I meditate on these things.

I’ll return early next week at the latest, not that I’ll have all the answers by then. I leave you with this lovely verse:

Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to present you faultless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy, to God our Savior, Who alone is wise, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and forever. Amen. (Jude 1:24-25)

May God bless you all with his grace and mercy.